I wanted to share more of what has been on my heart. If for no other reason than so that others
can see that I have the same struggles that you do. I am still of the flesh, born a sinful
person, and I struggle.
I have been reflecting upon what I was feeling and working
through yesterday. God is good all the
time though and this morning He has been especially good in showing me why I
was weary. Why I was feeling
broken. It was because I was too caught
up in ME. I was still hanging on too
much to all the things I wasn’t getting done, the sleep that wasn’t coming, the
dinners that were going unprepared. Even
though I felt like I was focusing on the needs of others, the needs of baby
Jason and his parents, the other pressing issues that we have at the moment,
the bottom line was I was still focused on ME.
I was letting myself get weary, not my circumstances getting me that
way.
My time with the Lord this morning could have not been more
dead on to what I needed to hear.
Reflecting on a study that Beth Moore has, has helped me see this also.
Gal 6:9-10 “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in
due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and
especially to those who are of the household of faith.”
Yes, I was still trying to do good, and that trying was
sincere, but ultimately I am the one who allows satan to tell me that isn’t
enough. To allow him to make me feel
broken. God is faithful regardless of
when I let ME get in the way. His
promise gives me strength. In Isaiah
58:6-11, he promises us that if we are to spend ourselves for Him, and call on
Him,
He will guide us continually.
He will satisfy our desires.
Our light will rise in darkness.
He will make our bones strong.
We shall be like a watered garden, whose waters do not fail.
So I humbly come to you and ask that you not only keep the
baby in your prayers, the parents, but also myself. Pray that I never become weary doing good for
His glory. Pray that I continue to let
go of ME and cling to His strength, no matter the circumstance. Pray that I never give satan a foothold in
any of this. I will pray the same for
you.
And, Praise God, baby Jason is showing so many signs of
recovery. And although there are still
those other pressing matters that are unresolved, others that need our help, I
have a renewed strength today. So thank
you for your prayers. They are making
such a difference.
